this present moment
It's a quiet Wednesday afternoon. There is nothing to do. There's no pressure, no rush, no worry, no hurry. Times like this usually cause me to look for an activity, get my hands busy, get my mind going to avoid snacking. Nibbling. Eating out of boredom. But I'm thankful to say that my thinking is changing. I'm learning to be in the moment. To realize that any moment we have is a good one because it's ours, it's here, and we're alive within it. It's the most wonderful thing in the world.
I'm still working my way through the book Women, Food and God by Geneen Roth. I'm halfway through it and actually make myself stop reading after a few pages or a chapter because I can relate to it so deeply. I'm afraid I'll read and read and without realizing...I'll be done. I don't want it to be over because I am learning so much about change, about reality, and about myself.
I've experienced first-time freedoms over the past few days as a result of new perceptions, new realizations, new ways of viewing things. It's as refreshing as a summer rain.
And I realize that my biggest hurdle was not overcoming my fear of food.
It was overcoming my fear of me.
Posted by Beth Coulton