I'm linking up today to Trusting Tuesdays at The Messy Middle, part of the OneWord365 project.
A very smart gal named Amy Young gathered those of us with the word "trust" as our One Word for 2014 and invited us to join her the Third Tuesday of every month with our posts. This way we can see how we're doing with being faithful to the word we chose.....good move, Amy!
I find it interesting that even though I've walked the trust road for only 21 days, God has gradually turned up the heat in areas where I need to trust Him. In the beginning, it was similar to using flash cards; He and I went through the easy ones first. I started out simply trusting Him with a person, a situation, or a relationship. Common, ordinary, everyday scenarios where I just take a moment, breathe out a prayer of "I trust you God with so-and-so," inhale deeply with renewed resolve and press on. Granted, it feels good to leave those things and people at His feet and let Him carry the burden. There were times I had to remind myself not to take back the burden for my so-and-so's; they were now God's to handle. I like this trust thing, I thought; it's working for me. And it was. It is. I have experienced a newfound freedom.
And God must have said, "Good!", because right after that little victory, we moved swiftly along.
As a matter of fact, I think we jumped directly to the back of the flash cards. To the hard ones.
Let me set the scene for you. I'm rarely sick. Hardly a cold, nary a cough, and I only use the occasional tissue. I'm not a plow-through-I'll-just-go-to-work-anyway-but-I'm-really-sick kind of person. Not at all. I just don't usually pick up germs that have me down for more than a few hours or a day.
But this past week has had me daily running through a strange array of physical symptoms; none of them life threatening or scary, all of them annoying and mind-consuming. Like, "I can't stop focusing on them" consuming.
God knew where I needed direct training in the area of trusting Him. And He brought it.
The cherry on top came yesterday when I was faced with a new symptom. And this one brought pain. I was more wondering what to do than I was concerned; sometimes the questioning of whether you're a hypochondriac or not is what's actually the most disconcerting. Do I call the doctor again? Or do I wait it out and hope to get better unaided, even when a snowstorm is coming and if I don't get an appointment today it's going to be a while? The not-knowing-my-next-move was making me crazy. I hadn't been to the doctor's office in over a year, and here I was looking at making my second appointment in a week.
So I called. And I received a healthy recommendation to stay put, eat more yogurt and buy a costly over the counter product.
My gut told me that was not going to do a blooming thing for how I was feeling.
But wasn't I supposed to trust the doctor? Was it right for me to tell her she was wrong? And where did trusting God in all this come into play?
After an hour or so, the nagging in my brain (God....is that You?) told me I had to take action. Again I dialed the now familiar number and this time made an appointment asking to be seen (thereby disregarding the doctor's phoned-in advice). It was the right thing to do; I knew it immediately. I had taken a step and listened to my body, mind and soul and what they were telling me to do.
And I realized in so doing, I had listened to God.
This was new. This was trust with a twist. It wasn't a simple, "God, I give you this situation/person/relationship" and then walking away. This time, trusting God meant listening to His voice in the midst of my confusion, and realizing He was leading me if only I'd stop long enough to notice.
Good thing I went to the doctor's. I did in fact need to be seen, and the snow did in fact come. A lot of it.
And in it all I learned a new way to trust - by being quiet and listening. And then stepping out in obedience to what He's telling me to do.
Next flash card.....
Beth I absolutely love the picture of flash cards (so much I made a Pin for the trust board and linked back to here :))-- and it's a good reminder that trusting God isn't JUST about God. God made us relational and he uses various avenues. I look forward to your February post (and I hope you feel better soon!!)ReplyDelete
Thanks Amy, and thanks for the Pin! And I'm feeling loads better.....Delete
Trust - what a tough word. I'm a classic Type A. I AM (not must be, AM) in control. Until I'm not. Then I panic. That's when I hear that still, quiet voice saying, "Trust ME. I have this. You don't need to worry anymore, just Trust."ReplyDelete
I can definitely relate! God is good about nudging us to turn things over to Him... Cuz He's the one in control!Delete
My word isn't Trust. But like you, God has already given me a hard assignment after a few easy ones.ReplyDelete
I too love the flashcard analogy.
And I think it's exciting that all of you as 'Trust' OneWorder's (probably not a word but I like it) are banding together!
Thanks Hellen! And isn't it interesting that you are experiencing the same degree of moving right up in your lessons.... God has a plan, a process and a procedure!Delete
I LIKE "OneWorder's" - that works!
Thought I'd posted my word Trust on that site, but got no invitation to join in the blogging, so does that mean I can forego trusting? :) Just kidding.!! It's interesting - after publishing a post today about stepping out in faith (i.e. trusting God for something I couldn't see) I had someone message me who said "you seem to have a sense of when God is tugging at you as opposed to your own desires"...and that made me think - do I really? Or is hindsight just 20/20? Reading your post confirmed what I said to him - it's in the nagging/nudging/even if 'I'm not sure but the thought won't go away' situations, that we learn to hear and trust God. It is far easier to trust and leave our burdens, then trust and step out in faith :) Thanks for the post!ReplyDelete
Toni - you are welcome. And yes, you've got that right- stepping out in trust and faith is the biggest step we can make most times! Picture "edge of cliff"....Delete
Also, if you contact Amy Young at The Messy Middle (you can click on a link in the beginning of the post), you can certainly join in on Trusting Tuesdays every third Tuesday of the month, and link up your post. We'd love to have you!
Like many other commenters, I like the flashcard analogy! I am glad you listened to God's prompting and went to the doctor, too.ReplyDelete
Thank you, Abby - me too. Felt a little like the crazy lady going against the flow, but in the end, it was worth it! (The doctor completely agreed!)Delete