I hadn't even noticed it was piling up.
Slowly but surely, the trash in my life had been accumulating. It was the quietest garbage I'd ever (not) heard, and it fit in so comfortably and slipped in so discreetly that I didn't miss the room it was taking up.
Kind of like when you put things behind the garage. You don't realize how much is there until one day you decide you'd like to use that area for something else, something better, and when you see the mountainous heap of forgotten things, you exclaim, "Oh my word, where did all THIS come from?"
And you realize it's time to haul it away. And quick.
I'm seeing that's the way it had been with my thinking. Not to play a broken record, but I'm still talking about things I'm learning through Geneen Roth's book. Until I started reading it, I had no idea how far off course my thinking about food and eating was. Not only was I no longer on the right road, but somewhere along the line I had taken a detour that led to nowhere. The way I was headed was never going to take me where I wanted to go.
Perhaps you've had a time in your life like I'm having now- you read something, wrote something, heard something that so revolutionized your thinking that it blew you away. It was almost too good to be true, too simple to be true, but then
you put it into practice and learned that it worked. And you were amazed.
It's a wonderful feeling.
In Genesis 35:2, Jacob faced his own garbage heap situation. Having been told by God that it's time they move on, he calls a household meeting . Jacob has one important instruction for them before they pack their tents and load their camels. "Get rid of all the foreign gods you have with you, and purify yourselves and change your clothes."
Jacob had seen the light. He had come to his senses, realized how great God was and that He was all he needed. Foreign gods were worthless idols and excess baggage for the trip. In essence, their leader told them,
"We're moving on but before we do, we need to take out the trash."
Foreign gods only take up valuable room that God Himself wants to occupy. Lose the idols, gain a lighter load for your journey.
Where do you need to do that today?
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women, food and god
Something is going on - something is changing.
Last night I started the book, "Women, Food and God" by Geneen Roth. I had seen her on Oprah about two weeks ago and barely caught fifteen minutes of the show, but afterward I went straight to my laptop, got myself into Amazon and ordered the book. On Oprah, there were success stories from gals who have read this book and put it into practice (the hard part, I know). They were talking about peeling back layers of who they were on the outside in order to get to who they really were on the inside. Why were they using food? What were they using it to hide? These women were changed, and it was evident on their faces that they were now at ease with themselves. No more covering up.
That night I thought to myself, I'd love to peel back the layers to see who I really am.
And with that thought, I knew I was ready to begin.
The book arrived in the mail and last night I cracked its cover. It resonated immediately with me. I loved what I was reading. I could completely relate to what I was reading. I didn't want to put it down, but it was getting late and I needed to get to bed. I found it interesting that ways in which my thoughts have been changing and things the Lord has pointed out to me the past couple of weeks (when I finally decided to give up the fight) are exactly what she is writing about in her book.
There's a surrender that has to happen. An "I need to feel instead of cover it up with food." A necessary recognition that while food is always available, always a friend, always what I expect it to be, it's fleeting. Its comfort is momentary, and its disastrous results lasting. I am clearly exchanging momentary pleasure to "get me through", instead of just dealing with feelings and moving past them.
She addresses the fact that some of us are holding on to a goal that we'll never reach for just that reason - to never reach it. I can identify with that. What would I be if I didn't have to think about food/eating/dieting all the time? I know what I'd be. I'd be the girl without a plan. The gal without a goal. And it's a little scary to go there. I've been working toward that end result for so many years I don't know what I'd do without it. To think - if THAT battle was over, what on earth would I do with myself? I'm starting to want to find out. There is so much MORE I could do with myself.
I want to be me. To feel , and live, and love and laugh. Even the hurts. Especially the good times. I want to be fed from life and God, and not from food. I want to be free.
Last night I started the book, "Women, Food and God" by Geneen Roth. I had seen her on Oprah about two weeks ago and barely caught fifteen minutes of the show, but afterward I went straight to my laptop, got myself into Amazon and ordered the book. On Oprah, there were success stories from gals who have read this book and put it into practice (the hard part, I know). They were talking about peeling back layers of who they were on the outside in order to get to who they really were on the inside. Why were they using food? What were they using it to hide? These women were changed, and it was evident on their faces that they were now at ease with themselves. No more covering up.
That night I thought to myself, I'd love to peel back the layers to see who I really am.
And with that thought, I knew I was ready to begin.
The book arrived in the mail and last night I cracked its cover. It resonated immediately with me. I loved what I was reading. I could completely relate to what I was reading. I didn't want to put it down, but it was getting late and I needed to get to bed. I found it interesting that ways in which my thoughts have been changing and things the Lord has pointed out to me the past couple of weeks (when I finally decided to give up the fight) are exactly what she is writing about in her book.
There's a surrender that has to happen. An "I need to feel instead of cover it up with food." A necessary recognition that while food is always available, always a friend, always what I expect it to be, it's fleeting. Its comfort is momentary, and its disastrous results lasting. I am clearly exchanging momentary pleasure to "get me through", instead of just dealing with feelings and moving past them.
She addresses the fact that some of us are holding on to a goal that we'll never reach for just that reason - to never reach it. I can identify with that. What would I be if I didn't have to think about food/eating/dieting all the time? I know what I'd be. I'd be the girl without a plan. The gal without a goal. And it's a little scary to go there. I've been working toward that end result for so many years I don't know what I'd do without it. To think - if THAT battle was over, what on earth would I do with myself? I'm starting to want to find out. There is so much MORE I could do with myself.
I want to be me. To feel , and live, and love and laugh. Even the hurts. Especially the good times. I want to be fed from life and God, and not from food. I want to be free.
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